Your reaction made me think, and I thought about it all the way to the coffeehouse for lunch. I have a problem to do or manifest something more fundamental JUST to myself, probably I think too globally or generally. I am discomfiture because, on the one hand, I know that I am selfish in some things, and on the other hand, this trait is disgusting to me and it is so hard to say (apart from laziness, the possibility of the presence of pain, the fear of failure, the awkward of silence when others expect the opposite), I do not care about others, I want it because of me.
I remembered such a little childhood story. I do not like wearing any accessories on my body outside of clothes like chains, bracelets, even a cap, sunglasses, umbrella or something. But it was not always so, I liked to wear a wrist wrapped with a thin stripe of leather as a kid. I went out once and my dad was talking to an older boy, he needed to borrow some tools, if I remember well. When he saw me, he praised my wrist which were wrapped around the skin several times. Then he asked if I could give him a piece of that leather stripe. I told him NOT. Dad was still there and told me to give him a piece that I had enough. I said no again and I started to get angry and say it is only mine. It was quite a passionate scene, but they "broke me" in the end and I unrolled the skin in disgust and my dad cutt off a piece of that skin against a stone verge post that stood by the road....I was not happy about it at all and I was narked at everyone.
PS: I will probably continue to expose tonight.