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  1. Here you go: (it will appear at in 3-5 days too) "Productivity" Belt by TealSwan "Raise Your Vibration" Belt by TealSwan
  2. This is for YOU! You deserve to be cared for at each moment of your life, but ESPECIALLY NOW, when you read this! You deserve unconditional and loving presence. You deserve to FINALLY get YOUR needs met! You deserve someone so attuned to you INDIVIDUALLY, to make you feel truly SEEN, UNDERSTOOD and SUPPORTED. You deserve someone creative enough to jump over or magically snap away the big (emotional) obstacles in your life! You deserve a deep sense of true BELONGING and solidarity with others that cures the deep wound of artificial separation and hurting loneliness. I wholeheardetly wish you relief, fulfillment and healing. *** Now that the above is said, it feels right for me to introduce myself: Hi! I’m Tomass : ) Yes, right! My name is written differently because of my latvian origins. Since 1995, I live in Berlin, Germany. The story of my trauma had a lot to do with my abusive family. In fact, being the only child raised in a foreign country, it took me until my teenage years to become really aware of the mental and emotional abuse, chess gaming and denial my family drowned me in. I know it all: Feeling aliented by unconscious classmates and insensitive teachers, having long periods of depression, witnessing physical and emotional violence and even suicide attempts in my family. During my Dark Night of the Soul (existential crisis) before starting my koan practice (from Zen buddhism), I experienced massive panik attacks and extreme spiritual phenomena. Knowing the extremes of acute spiritual/existential crisis first hand makes me REALLY empathic about it. Many years of meditation and other spiritual practice give me the foundation to help you in such tough times and help you to ground. I hold a Bachelor degree in Communications in the Context of Society and Economy from the University of Arts in Berlin. Also, I’m the second lineage holder/successor from my buddhist spiritual master Dr. Marianne Wachs. As written above, every Completion Process session with me is highly individual and unfolds in a way that benefits YOU the most. I would LOVE to facilitate a Completion Process for you, contact me! : ) ***PS: Dear universe, dear Teal, dear TealEye members…THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR A BEING IN THIS WITH YOU& YOU BEING IN THIS WITH ME! <3
  3. I am an Intuitive healer, Life empowerment Coach and a CP practitioner, all mixed together. What I do best is hold a loving presence for anything and everything that comes up for you. I see you. I see your light. Even if the darkness has hidden it from you, I still see it. Together we’ll rescue the lost children and breathe life back into them, so that you can create a life of passion and purpose. I’m so glad that you’re on this planet with me!
  4. Here The space between skin and skin is torment. But here The space between souls makes the space between skin and skin a comfort. The truth is hidden and yet its whisper reaches us in the sweet luxury of a smile. In the brief consumption of embrace. It tells you to look deeper… To look deeper. Look beyond the space between us all and see that you are that smile. You are that embrace. You are the civilian whose life was lost to hatred. You are the man who strapped a bomb to your own body, and in the name of hatred, took those lives. You are the earth that held them both and converted their bodies into new life. Your pain is a congress of tears called the ocean. Your joy is a collation of light called the sun. The whisper of truth tells you to look deeper… To look deeper. Until the truth is revealed that there is no space between skin and skin. That there is no space between souls. It is a strange time to be alive. It feels like every morning we wake up to discover what new terrible thing happened in the world while we were sleeping. Like so many times these last years, I awoke this morning to the news of yet another terrorist attack, this time in Manchester England. It was an attack that claimed 22 lives and wounded 59. The attack has been claimed by the Islamic State... again. Ironically, last night, I spent the whole night out of body in Kabul (a Muslim city). Every time these attacks occur, people seek solace with teachers and leaders, like myself, to deal with what has happened. They post messages on my social media walls. They write me e-mails and letters. And I wish I had something comforting to say. The truth is that it is difficult to know what to say. It is difficult to speak truth relative to these events, rather than to simply provide Novocain for the masses. I want to take the pain away. But awareness is our only hope of thwarting these attacks in the future and awareness is not often comfortable. As a seer, I believe that the human race is capable of doing what it will take to end the battle between us all. But the fact that someone is capable of something does not immediately guarantee that they will do that thing. As a seer, I see that this is just the beginning of this trend of terrorist attacks. This is the new climate of the world. We may know that oneness is the ultimate truth of our universe, but it is nearly impossible to be on the receiving end of such an attack and see the attacker as yourself. It is instinctual if you have lost loved ones or if you have lost the safety of your streets to such a person or people to push them away from yourself. It is instinctual to want them to pay for what they did by losing their own life. It is instinctual to hate them. And I think it is cruelty to ask people who are suffering on the receiving end of such an attack to either forgive them or to love them. Which is why, in this blog, I am not addressing the people who have directly been involved in the attack. Instead, I am addressing everyone else. I am addressing those of you who woke up to read about this event in the morning papers. It is inevitable that under enough pressure, anything will break. When we see a man strap explosives to his own body and use his own life to take the lives of others, we are looking at the kind of pressure that makes a person break. I have tasted those emotional spaces myself. Spaces where the pain is so intense, it doesn’t matter anymore. Your life doesn’t matter and other lives do not matter. All that matters is relief. Enough pain will make a man do anything. And anyone who does not understand that has not been in enough pain to know this truth. From my perspective, we all have a collective problem that creates this kind of event. This collective problem belongs to both the perpetrator and the victim of any crime. The problem is on both sides of the gun. I will speak about this later on, but it is a problem that requires a much more conscious approach than the majority of people are ready for. For that reason, I’m going to begin on a much more ‘grounded’ level. On a grounded level, the problem that needs healing is on the other side of the gun from where we are usually focusing. No baby is born suckling on mother’s milk and thinking about how wonderful it will be when they get the chance to kill a crowd full of people along with themselves in the name of a cause. They reach adulthood with this thought because of the circumstances they encounter along the way. And these circumstances are not circumstances of love and belonging. They are circumstances of loneliness and ineffable pain. Hatred is merely a cover emotion for hurt. Think about a time where you hated someone. Think about a time when you hated something with every fiber of your being. Can you see that below that hatred the truth is that they hurt you in some way? This is the vulnerability that hatred is protecting. Like all religious doctrine and even more so cultural doctrine, there are beautiful aspects of the various Islamic faiths and there are aspects of the Islamic faiths that are downright dangerous to the human mind and human heart. Inherent in so much of the culture of religious communities is “us vs. them” thinking. This is the danger of any religion thinking that they have the ‘one and only truth’ and that all other people are wrong and lesser. This kind of thinking leads to an indoctrination of distrust and fear and superiority within the minds of children being raised in these communities. But this is not enough to create the kind of hatred that pushes a person to commit desperate acts of hatred. For that, deep and personal pain must be experienced relative to a situation where there is “us vs. them”. Last month, the United States dropped the largest nonnuclear bomb in Afghanistan. That same month, Syrian planes enacted a chemical attack on Khan Shaikhoun. I will never forget one of the headlines I read: 13 year old lost 19 family members in Syria Chemical attack. As usual, governments and radical groups wage war with each other and civilians are the ones who pay the price for it. Perhaps this boy will grow into a man who teaches about love instead of war. But I can’t help but see the shadow potential inherent in his story. Putting myself in this boy’s shoes, I have no family left. I have nowhere to belong. I have been hurt so badly that grieving is almost impossible. I cannot swallow even half of it. The powerlessness to the pain exacted upon me naturally converts itself into hatred. Perhaps when I meet other people who share that same hatred, I have a place to belong. Perhaps when they tell me of a plot to destroy the very people who killed my family and took everything from me, I feel less powerless to my own pain. I feel a sense of purpose. The truth is, I have nothing to lose by destroying them. My pain now has a direction. And with that much pain, my dedication is strong enough that I don’t care what sacrifices I have to make for it. Even if that sacrifice is my own life. I feel the promise of relief. I would pay any price for that relief, even if it only comes with my own death. I cannot tell you how many people who have grown up in the Middle East over the last few generations have stories like these to tell. I cannot tell you how many people, who have been born to parents who grew up with these kinds of painful stories to tell, carry on that legacy of family pain. This is the danger of any war or conflict. The mark is left on so many generations after the first that experiences it. We cause hurt to each other that breeds hatred. And then we wonder why these kinds of attacks occur. Any “simplistic” answer given to these world conflicts are ignorant. For example, it is simplistic to say that we should merely stop invading other countries. It is simplistic to say that we should merely kill all extremists. We need to stop long enough to comprehend the pain on all sides of the equation to see the problem that really needs addressing… The problem that is under the surface of our conflict. And we will never be able to see the root problem (which is pain) if we continue with this ‘good guy and bad guy’ thinking. It is easier to not think of terrorists as people. It helps us to sleep at night when we see nothing of ourselves in them. It is easier to sleep at night when we put them behind bars, just like we did with the aspects of ourselves that are anything like them. The collective problem that creates this kind of event is fragmentation. Our wholeness is short lived when we are born because we are born relationally dependent. Being born relationally dependent into families that socialize us into a society that is not fully evolved yet, spells trouble. Basically we learn that some aspects of ourselves are acceptable, and others are not. What is acceptable vs. unacceptable depends on the perspective of the family you’re born into. The aspects of us that are seen as unacceptable (both positive and negative) are rejected by our family (pushed away) and the aspects that are seen as acceptable are not (included). Essentially, we are only shown love in response to things that people around us want to include as part of themselves and their lives. Being relationally dependent and in the name of survival, we try to gain control over our environment and preserve ourselves by doing anything we can to disown and deny and suppress those aspects in ourselves that are disapproved of whilst exaggerating those that are approved of. We dissociate from what we disapprove of. This creates a split within the person that we call the conscious and the subconscious. This is the birth of the “personality”. It is ironic because this self-preservation instinct is in fact our first act of self-rejection (fragmentation). We develop a “this is me” and “this isn’t me” attitude. Our “Us vs. Them” thinking about the world outside of us is nothing but a reflection of this internal fragmentation. It is why the world is fragmented. It is why we can read the headlines in the newspaper and feel immediate hatred towards “those Muslims”. It is why we can enslave or segregate “those blacks”. Through our life experience as well as socialization, the thing that we learn is the most unacceptable thing within us, is vulnerability. The truth is that your personality is a coping mechanism designed to hide and mitigate your vulnerability. We cope with the threat to our vulnerability in the world by seeing our own vulnerability as “other” than us. It is buried, rejected, disowned, denied and masked. What is the solution? We have to stop disowning and instead re-own aspects of us. Especially our vulnerability. We have to reverse the process of fragmentation within us. We have to see “other” within ourselves and take care of the hurt within us that is behind that fragmentation so it does not turn into fear and into hatred. I’ll show you the first step to doing it, by using myself as an example. This example may shock you because today, you see me as a spiritual teacher. Today, I teach authenticity and love and oneness. The story I am about to tell you is anything but those things. When I was young, I was raised in a town that was over 90% Mormon. Just like the Muslim faith, the LDS faith teaches that it is the only true religion. Just like the Muslim faith, there is a huge discrepancy between the actual LDS doctrine and the LDS culture in rural Utah. Being a Christian based faith, Mormons are taught to love their neighbor and they are taught kindness. But their culture is often the exact opposite of that. In the town where I grew up, bishops supported segregation. Many of them encouraged their congregations to not allow their children to be influenced by (play with) non-Mormon children. They were continuously warned about the second coming of Christ and the temptations that the devil would place before them leading up to that day. The result was, I had no friends growing up whatsoever. I was excluded from carpools. I was ostracized from society at only four years old. The isolation I experienced within society was a big part of what led me to being inducted into a cult where I was tortured for years. It left a huge opening for a sociopath who was looking for an opening to use in order to access me. I was in so much pain that I often cut myself in the bathroom at school to try to mitigate the pain. Not one person stepped out to help me. Instead, they treated me as a social threat. As a teen, families would warn their sons against their attraction to me. They would tell them that I was a sign of the second coming and part of Satan’s army who had come to sexually tempt them away from “the right”. In high school, verses from the book of Mormon were scratched into my car with a key. They would wear their garments and CTR (choose the right) rings and actually tell me that those things were protecting them from… me. By the time I reached high school, my hatred for the Mormon Church and for anyone who said they were Mormon was so deep and visceral that I wanted them all to die. I would daydream about their temples being blown up and consumed by fire. I wanted them to suffer as I had suffered. I could have met the most loving Mormon in the world and I still would have wanted them to be tortured to death. What I had to own is that this hatred was in me. And under it, this pain was in me. I could have made it only about them. But regardless of whether or not they caused it, it was in me… Two fragments. The first fragment is a self that was a victim. This self is in so much pain. This self feels powerless to make the Mormons like me and to make them see me as good. This self feels cast out and forsaken by them. This self doesn’t belong anywhere even though I desperately want to. And the second fragment is a self that is protecting that vulnerable self. This self will not let anyone close to that vulnerability and will not ever let me be hurt like that again. This side wants to eradicate the threat. This side wants to create justice. This side wants to feel power instead of powerlessness. This self is keeping the other self safe in an instinctual way. This “split” is created in all of us when we meet with pain in the world. It exists within us all. It is the self that is protecting our vulnerable self that is causing the conflict in the world. It is this protector self within the Mormons that injured me as a child when something about me threatened their own vulnerability. It is this protector self that carried out the suicide bombing in Manchester this morning. It is this self that will never let the vulnerable self it is hiding, be seen. The first step we have to take individually, which will reverberate out into society is to step squarely into awareness, which is in between these two polarities and hold them both. Neither is bad and neither is wrong and neither can be cut off from us because both are a part of us. We need to see the good intentions in the protector and ensure it that we are capable of taking care of the aspect that it is hiding, which is vulnerable. Then we need to acknowledge and take loving care of that pain and hurt belonging to the vulnerable self and begin to meet its needs. The need of the vulnerable self is not to have the threat be killed or brought to human justice. The need of the vulnerable self is to be kept safe and to be loved. For example, the need of my vulnerable self was not to have the Mormon temples blown up and consumed by fire. The need was not to have every Mormon be tortured until they die. The need was to be included. The need was to be seen as good. The need was to be protected by the society that I was raised in. It is only when we become aware of the vulnerable self that we can become aware of these needs and begin to meet them. If we do not start to become aware of this split within us between the vulnerable self and the self that is protecting that vulnerable self against the world, the world will merely continue to mirror it externally. We will only feel the stirrings of that vulnerable self when we see the death toll of the victims of attacks like we saw this morning. Instead of becoming conscious enough to mend the split within us, we will protect those victims by turning against the perpetrators of these attacks. We will lock them behind bars. We will eradicate them in the name of keeping ourselves safe. We will simply play into the current unconscious and instinctual strategy of our own protector self, which is to eradicate harm by treating it as “other”. It is a kind of fate that until we mend this split within ourselves and begin addressing each other’s vulnerabilities, the world will be nothing more than our protector selves waging war to keep our vulnerable selves safe. And in doing so, we will be making the opposition feel the exact same terror that our own vulnerable selves feel. The grenades will go back and forth, back and forth… endlessly. It is a kind of fate that by doing that, our vulnerable selves will be more deeply buried and more in danger than they ever were before. And that is why I see that these attacks are not going to cease. Instead, they will continue to increase, like they have been. Until the day that the reflection in the mirror grows large enough that we either have the courage to see it, or cannot avoid seeing it any longer. You are the civilian whose life was lost to hatred. You are the man who strapped a bomb to your own body and in the name of hatred, took those lives.
  5. I can make those belts for you. Our manufacturer offers belts, we just haven't made any since there was no interest. This is what they would look like, let me know if you would be interested (I can also put the frequency on the belt buckle, let me know what you think): Dimensions: Canvas Strap: 47.5"l x 2.25"w Metal Tin Belt Buckle: 2.75"l x 2.25"w
  6. What frequency belt would you like?
  7. Am I living in a Rat Cage? How much of this rat cage is mine? The Rat Cage is merely a mental construct that has manifested itself into reality but has become a real rat cage. Teal Swan is an International Spiritual Leader. She offers perspective on a wide range of topics including relationships, anxiety, meditation, shadow work, the law of attraction, The Completion Process, healing, PTSD, emotions and spirituality. Subscribe to Teal’s newsletters here: Teal's Web page: Teal's Meditations: Teal's e-shop: Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video!
  8. A small hint -
  9. Hello Tejas!
  10. I am here to provide the unconditional presence and love that we wished we had growing up as a child. I take a really tender approach with everyone that I work with, attuning to them and offering genuine connection and support. It gives me great joy to offer this beautiful process and help hold space for you while doing some powerful & transformative work. It's my belief that there is no trauma we've faced that is too big or too small. It's all trauma in the end and the pain really deserves our unconditional presence so we can learn from it and integrate those wounds we incurred throughout our childhood, so that we are not plagued by them anymore in our adult lives. I know how scary that can be to do, especially by yourself. I am here to hold space with you and journey into it together in a container of safety. I look forward to talking with you and being alongside you through your journey of integration and healing!
  11. I am proud to be with you all on this journey. As a Combat Veteran my life's work is specializing in Combat PTSD, Military/Social Deprogramming, Facing Fear and Soul Retrieval. I also specialize in Body/Mind Detoxification and Physical Reset, Energy/Chakra Balancing (reiki (qigong), and have 13 years of experience in Health/Fitness/Nutrition now based in Healing with Natural Foods, Herbology and have extensive knowledge of Shamanism and Plant Medicine in which I studied in the Amazonian Jungle with the Shipibo Conibo tribe. My goal is to assist you in traveling deep into the shadows within the subconscious in order to face different aspects of self that are blocked and/or need understanding. As a guide I aim to teach you how to navigate through fear and emotions leading to self-realization, awareness, self-love and Wisdom. You are not alone. The answers you seek are within you waiting to be set free.
  12. Do you have unmet needs? This Ask Teal Episode is about How to Meet your needs and get what you want. What's the difference between needs and wants? The difference between needs and wants is sometimes merely a difference between subconscious and conscious. Teal Swan is an International Spiritual Leader. She offers perspective on a wide range of topics including relationships, anxiety, meditation, shadow work, the law of attraction, The Completion Process, healing, PTSD, emotions and spirituality. Subscribe to Teal’s newsletters here: Teal's Web page: Teal's Meditations: Teal's e-shop: Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video!
  13. Teal Swan is an internationally recognized spiritual leader and powerful voice in the field of Metaphysics. In this episode, Teal shares the harrowing story of her childhood and how her extrasensory abilities led her to become the target of an abusive cult, and how it ultimately led her to cultivate her own process of recovery and transformation. Teal and Brandon also discuss many other fascinating topics such as the inherent non-existence of material objects, twin flames, shadow work, and the shortcut to enlightenment. Links:
  14. A poem Teal wrote about integration, which is realized through love, being the only way to end the war between good and evil.
  15. To a certain degree all people wrestle with what is. We have an intolerance for things the way they are and so we want to change it. This tendency is a beautiful thing because it makes our lives and our world improve. If we tolerated the fact that we could not fly, we would never have invented the airplane for example. However, some of us don’t simply wrestle with what is. We are warriors. We fight what is as if our survival depends on it. Our unwillingness to accept what is, is a great source of suffering, especially when we can’t change certain things about what is. And in fact, it prevents us from getting what we need and want. In a universe based on the law of mirroring (otherwise known as the law of attraction) whatever we resist, persists because in resisting something, we are focused directly upon it. And the primary form that resistance takes is the unwillingness to accept ‘what is’ as reality. For example, lets say that someone you love dies. The reality is that they are dead. The reality is that you are heartbroken and grieving. But instead of accepting what is so, you go immediately into resistance to what is. You spend your energy focusing on how it could have been prevented. You spend your energy on who is to blame for it. You spend your time on how it isn’t ok to grieve so you have to find a way to feel better as fast as possible. You spend your energy focusing on what it means about you and your future. None of this brings the person you love back to life. None of this changes the fact that you are heartbroken and grieving. All of this is simply a fight with what is. The tension you feel while trying to change what has happened instead of accepting it, is resistance. Having said that, we need to have a serious amount of compassion for the fact that stopping our fight with reality is much easier said than done, especially if we are in a situation where nothing we do in the current moment will change something into what we want. For example, if someone you love dies, nothing you do will bring them back to life. The absolute helpless horror of that reality is too much to accept and so it is only natural that the only place your energy can go in that situation is into fighting that it even happened in the first place and panicking about the future. Eventually, none of this will bring them back to life, so the reality that they are dead and that nothing can change that, will be accepted. But know that releasing resistance by accepting what is in many situations, (including this one I’ve just described) is the hardest thing you will ever do and we should never act as if it is as easy as flipping a switch because it isn’t. Acceptance is the opposite of denial and avoidance. What does it mean to accept something? To accept is to recognize something as valid or correct. Doing this makes your being consent to receiving it and digesting it as truth instead of fighting to not acknowledge it and not take it in. Acceptance has nothing to do with condoning something or condemning something. It has nothing to do with whether you want to change something or not. It is simply about being able to acknowledge something as valid enough to let that acknowledgement in instead of fight to keep it out. If you want to experience your own resistance, think of something you can’t stand in your life and stripping away the resistant thoughts about it, see if you can find “What is so?” about this situation. It will feel like finding the deep, painful facts. Once you have done that, ask yourself: Can that be ok? For example, if one of my friends and I are now on such bad terms that we hate each other, I may be desperately trying to find a way to make it better. I may be telling myself all kinds of stories about why I can’t ever seem to have long lasting good relationships. I may be thinking about how it could have been prevented. I maybe telling myself all the reasons it is right to be so damn angry at her because its her fault. All of this is a fight with what is. All of this suggests that it is not ok for me to accept what is so. What is so is that my friend and I who were once really good friends, now hate each other. What is so is that I am heartbroken about it. What is so, is that I have no idea how to make it better. Can I accept that? Just that? In truth it has to be ok that this is the reality, because it is the current reality. Regardless of whether or not I want what is to be different and regardless of whether I may do something to try to change what is, the reality is that this is what is right now. We have to accept what is before we do anything else. Here is another example, if we are lost on a hike; we have to accept where we on the map are vs. where we want to be in order to get anywhere different. If I got lost and realized I was 50 miles away from where I wanted to be, I would need to accept that and let that sink in and only then would any real solution or answer about how to get somewhere different be accessible to me. If I spent my time and energy thinking about how it happened and how I should have avoided it and how it could have gone differently and about what this means about me as a person and about how this will impact the future etc. All I am doing is avoiding accepting what is. What is, is that I am 50 miles off course and that doesn’t feel good. When things happen that we do not want to accept happened, we get super angry about it and obsess about how it shouldn’t have happened. That doesn’t change the fact that it did happen and that you now have to deal with the reality that it happened. You are not going to be able to change the outcome of something that already happened. Holding this kind of resistance simply makes you powerless and nothing will improve. By getting angry and blaming the situation at hand, you are trying to change what already happened. And you are trying to change the way you feel. But you can’t. It happened and now you feel the way you feel. Can you accept that? Once you accept that, you will see whole new possibilities that you never had access to before. If you are really struggling to accept what is because you are judging that it is so not ok that what is… is, challenge yourself to finding approval for what is. This can actually help you accept it. I am aware that this practice is super hard. But imagine that your car breaks down. Don’t fall into the trap of criticizing yourself for not taking the car in to get the check engine light looked at or panicking about what it will mean if you don’t get where you are going on time, or blaming someone else. None of this does anything to change the reality that the car has broken down. All this is, is resistance. Instead, take out a pen and paper (if you don’t want to do it in your head) and start listing all the things that are good about the car breaking down and or the situation at hand. For example, perhaps it broke down right next to a restaurant, so you can wait for a tow truck indoors. Perhaps you are grateful there is such a thing as a tow truck service in this day and age. Perhaps a positive is that taxis or Uber exists so you can actually get where you were going on time regardless. Perhaps someone nice stopped to help out and that made you feel better about humanity. Write down anything that makes you feel more ok or softer about it having happened. Commit to accepting what is so. You don’t have to like something to acknowledge that something is what is so. Spend as much time on this step as it takes to feel your mind and emotions and body softening to swallow what is so. Only then can you refocus your attention on what you can do NOW. It is a waste of time and energy fighting what has already occurred. And you will be blown away at how fast situations remedy and solutions come to you out of the blue when you release the resistance you are holding against what is so.