yees, I have something similar. Actually, 2 days ago I was working on this, it all came because I have this belief in that the universe doesn't respond to me, and whenever I'm happy rather than reflecting that happiness, all I get is some form of suffering back, like joy cannot build on itself it will collapse at some point, but suffering can very well build on itself. And while I was working on it, this memory of my 1year old niece came to me, she was dancing and singing in the living room and as soon as we saw her we started dancing and singing too, suddenly you have 8 adults all singing Little Snowman and dancing around her, just by looking at her, it was so heavenly that moment. Basically, we were mirroring her happiness. And after that, I saw the many times that I experienced the opposite, where I was happy and like any kid you look for your significant adults, the ones you love to mirror back your feeling, but if they are not attuned or paying attention to you, they don't mirror your feeling, or shame you for feeling. So, your joy gets unresponded and instead you focus and mirror whatever it is that they are feeling, which in my case was some form of suffering.
So I thought, the Law of Attraction doesn't really work, because when I'm happy and look outside, for all the joyous things to keep coming, all I see is suffering, and then I suffer too, so the Universe doesn't respond to my joy. But actually it is sooooo attune to me, that my reality it's mirroring that childhood programming and many others, that I had no idea that I had. For me, that crumbled the childhood programming down, I saw myself loving my parents so much that I took what they were feeling as part of me, and although my childhood is full of self-abandonment and I cannot change that, I know that the self-abandonment was coming from that place of love (any child is taking their parents as part of themselves), so now I am free to take myself as part of myself as well, and the Universe will surely mirror it.