Sometimes I just want to truly disown these aspects I tried to disown. Who says I have to identify with them subconsciously? If I make a split in myself I want the split off aspect completely gone! I don't care if I become a different person. I'd rather be a different person. The "I" that's becoming a different "I" is just an illusion anyway, who cares what fragments or doesn't fragment. Who cares if I'm not living some "authentic truth" as if it's something that was decided before birth and cannot change.