Very interesting. This definitely rings a bell in regards to my childhood having that "transactional" style of relationship, so this totally makes sense.
One other interesting thing I'd like to share, is that I feel like I vibe less and less with Teal's teachings every day. Even when what she's saying is "true", when I look at my own personal life, it feels like I've already come out of the trauma I used to be stuck in, but listening to Teal's videos brings me back down to a level that feels like I don't need to be on.
I've already sat with my shadow and integrated enough that my childhood trauma is no longer holding me back in life. I have a lot of forward momentum, and doing any more shadow work, or choosing to look for something that's wrong with me, actually seems to damage me even more.
It seems to be that the more damage you look for, the more damage you find. The healing work is never ending, and there's always something more that you need to work on, or become integrated/conscious of.
I've reached a point in my journey where I'm able to see that doing any more integration work is unnecessary. I'm still becoming more and more conscious every day, and integrate things that need integration, as they arise, but it actually feels unnecessarily painful if I continue diving deep and actually go in search of new shadows, or things that are wrong with me. Looking for things that need integration, or basically looking for more fractures within myself, actually seems to make more fractures be created.
It seems like I'm perfectly happy with my life as it is, but the minute I go looking for more fractured aspects to integrate, it seems to bring my vibe down to a place that it doesn't need to be. I've already healed myself and raise my vibe, so dwelling on trauma from the past doesn't seem to serve me any longer. The path of least resistance now actually seems to be the positive creativity state, which is the exact opposite of shadow work and integration.
I feel like what you're teaching a lot of now is spirituality 2.0, where you sit with the rejected emotions. I personally have done that as much as I needed to, but interestingly enough my journey has now brought me back to spirituality 101. Even though it's probably not meant to be in one particular order, 101 and then 2.0, it sometimes does naturally take a 1st and 2nd role, which people will often oscillate between over different periods in their journey.
I've come to a point that 2.0 actually feels forceful and doesn't vibe with me as well anymore. 101 seems like the natural, most in alignment flow for me. I think I'm able to manifest so easily now because I'm doing it from a place of curiosity, or even playfulness, instead of just manifesting something in order to resist and avoid something else. The resistance in my life is no longer there, so it's much more easy for me to manifest from more pure state. I think it may actually be 3.0 in that case because I'm manifesting out of curiosity, instead of "lack" or something like that. Either way, it just feels like more of a forward, upward movement because I'm creating things in my life right now with passion and a sense of ambition. I'm in a powerful creative flow, and I seem to come out of that when I focus more on shadow or what's wrong with me. Going in search of new fractures that I have suppressed.
It seems like even though integration and becoming more whole is supposed to be a good thing, it can actually have the opposite effect if a person does it with a sense that they don't like who they are, without it. If you're only doing shadow work and becoming conscious because you're not happy with who you are when you're "unconscious", your first lesson in shadow work would be to stop hating yourself for being unconscious. Let yourself be unconscious. Don't think that you'll be more happy with yourself, or that you'll be enjoying your life more when you're more "conscious". If you're unhappy when you're unconscious, chances are you're going to still be just as unhappy when you finally become "conscious".
My journey has shown me to be aware of my trauma, but once I became aware of it, it no longer feels like baggage that I'm carrying around. The event becomes just another part of my memory, but it no longer registers as "trauma". They're just light and easy memories.
What I'm saying is that at some point, healing DOES come to an end. I am at that point in my life now. Once you get here, it actually feels out of alignment to do any more shadow work. The integration still happens continually, but it's not so much of a process where you find things that were wrong with your childhood. Doing that continually just doesn't feel healthy, and actually seems to keep people stuck in trauma.