Haha so funny I did experience that jealousy at a birthday party when I was younger. I didn’t feel like I was getting many presents and on the friends birthday party I went to she got soooo many presents and I had to give her a present I really liked for myself. I told my mom I didn’t want to give it and of course she didn’t agree. I don’t remember if she shamed me but I remember feeling so empty and resistant. I remember thinking to myself, she is getting sooo much from everyone, I don’t have that much and I don’t get that much for my birthdays And I really like this present, it shouldn’t hurt her if I just keep it. Haha ? my mom didn’t like it and pushed me to give it. So I did and was upset... not sure what to make of it but that’s interesting I still remember it so vividly. I was sitting in front of her door on the stairs, I think we were taking our shoes off to get inside the house... I have compassion for myself though. I had every right to feel this way and I shouldn’t have been pushed to give.