I constantly end up with the worst people for me possible. I seem to gravitate towards them. Whenever I've had chances with good, kind, and compatible people I've done things to ruin that chance and gone back to the toxic people. This is a pattern that I've been going through since I was 18 and I am 34 now. When I am with someone good I find that I feel resentful of them. When I am with someone who is toxic I find that I automatically feel in love and romanticize everything of this toxic person. Habit I cannot seem to break.