I just want to say to you, you are so brave for sharing this.
this is what I feel as well, word for word! I am right here with you. This IS EXACTLY what I feel.
Thank you so much for putting this into words and sharing it with the world.
I am literally so relieved to know I am not alone in feeling this way.
I was trying to tell my other family/community members about this and ran against a wall, which made me feel crazy and alone.
Reading this I feel so much more at peace and less crazy.
Thank you so much