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Christine Wishnoff

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  1. This truly has blown my mind .. I relate so much to the depth of suffering and the imagery of the sense of separation and the anguish and darkness.. it pulls on my illusions of the past of which I have went through mental break downs through pain from the sense of separation fed by fear.. The imagery of being all of the universe is what has become my hugest fear and spurred my delving into the pain of my being .. the pain of isolation and lack of love... I felt and believed at one point that I never wanted to evolve to the point of awareness that I would have the realization that I am all the universe and then end the games of suffering by coming back into myself because I was afraid in that moment of realization and uniting with my whole true self I would begin to instantaneously dissolve the illusion of physical reality and at the same time I would dissolve into being the universe and all that is and then I would be simply a point of consciousness in the vastness of empty space and I would forever spend infinity alone... in nothingness.. as the torment of being alone inside of nothing would be more hell than living a life with moments of connection of visual and tactile beauty.... However I now understand this is not so.. that I would never wish to stop evolving and I will always choose awareness and unity and love over pain and separation.. This is my new choice and awareness .. I believe that when we all evolve to that point of awareness we will then begin to raise bond all the layers of vibrational realities (illusions) and expand into the truth of our being which I truly believe we are the many aspects of the a much larger soul and all that we are is the genetic information configuring itself within the zygote forming a new life that is existing within the womb of its mother.. about to be birthed..
  2. Hello Teal I recently came across a video of a session you did at one of your workshops in which you spoke about your friend who was born at one pound and whom you created a simulated womb in your home for her.. I looked into somatic therapy as you mentioned that to the people you were working with.. and it has been poring up in my reality slightly lately. I too was born at only one pound and had a breach birth.. I was in an incubator for 3 and a half months until they gave me my first bath and let people touch me.. I have done some cranial sacred therapy that evolved into a rebirthing process but I still felt very sad when my therapist took her hands away and it felt deeply painful again.. as if i was not ready. When I was in high school I went on a school music trip to Austria and we visited a sound museum.. my self and my two friends (who also had traumatic births and one was also born premature) loved the area where it had simulated womb sounds.. We kept returning to it and just sitting there.. not having a clue why we liked it most at the time other than the amusing sounds. All through my schooling processes from kinder garden through college and into the work place I have always felt and described to my mother and grandmother that I always feel as though I am standing on the other side of an invisible glass wall of which everyone else is on the other side together... I can not even count how many times I have expressed this and how often in contemplation it has come back to this sense of being stuck on the other side of some invisible glass wall... and it was not until I came across your video last night that it clicked for me and I really understood why!. I'm remembering the incubator.. My hugest fear in life is being stuck inside alone and away from the world.. the soothing sounds and visceral experiences of nature and the connections with people.. and yet I live in that reality all the time and I have created through manifesting it unconsciously.. I just have not known how to break free of it and being labeled with ADHD as a young child has haunted me with more of a sense of separation all my childhood and into the work place where I can't seem to keep up enough weather on a cash register or kitchen to retaining all I need to know in time for exams in post secondary school.. ADHD is something that holds me back from being self sufficient as an adult and providing for myself and also because maintaining regular work is impossible I get given one to three closing shifts where I work mainly alone cleaning.. this furthers my sense of separation.. so anyway long story short I really want to know how to create a womb like environment for myself.. im serious about healing myself so I can finally enjoy a life worth living.. I have calculated the hours I missed in the womb and how many nights I will need to sleep in a fake womb before I feel ready to enter the world and I have found beautiful womb sounds on youtube and created myself a playlist for me to sleep to every night. My question is how do I create a womb like environment for myself ? thank you!
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