I was just speaking to my sister a few days ago that I'm the one holding myself back. It goes back, as usual, to fear of disapproval/shame/not enough. This looks externally by me procrastinating or perfectionism.
I did leave Los Angeles a month ago so hopefully, that will help my energy. I do miss California and would like to try San Diego as I know other cities aren't so narcissistic and the men have more masculine energy.
I had a Birth Trauma Reiki session a few weeks back!