Teal, thank you for this amazing post. I love everything you said. Messages like this are what the world needs to hear and see. Enlightenment does not equal perfection. I'm so glad to see spiritual leaders like you sharing your authentic selves and your humanity in all it's facets. I'm existentially tired of teachers portraying enlightenment as this state of continuous joy and bliss. It's what made my own experience of awakening so much harder. Constantly trying to live up to that standard was exhausting, and, as you said, bringing me farther and farther away from self-realization. Thank you for you courage and vulnerability to show the world what a real spiritual leader looks like.