Rosalie

Members
  • Content count

    51
  • Joined

  • Last visited

4 Followers

About Rosalie

  • Member Type
    Member
  • Birthday 02/15/1999

Recent Profile Visitors

1,307 profile views
  1. Sorry, I don't know anything about cars..... If I was a mammal I would be a snow leopard. If I was a fish I would be a small white koi with long fins. If I was a bird I would be a swan. If I was a domestic animal, I would be a cat. If I was a tree I would be a jasmine tree. If I was a flower I would be a pink rose. If I was a bike I would be a vintage baby blue bike with a basket in the front. If I was a color, I would be a light, misty shade of blue. If I was a time of day I would be very early in the morning before anyone else is up. I was a cookie I would be a strawberry macaron. If I was a candy I would be bubblegum. If I was a gemstone I would be moonstone or aquamarine (can't choose.)
  2. Yes, I agree. It has to be Scorpiogirl's descision and leaving will certainly come with its own set of problems. I just feel like there is a point at which a relationship stops being salvageable and I felt like this was one was at that point (what with the abuse and them encouraging her to kill herself.) I don't know if you can ever come back from something like that. I was also just so shocked and horrified after reading Scorpiogirl's post. I was scared for her life and afraid that something terrible would happen to her if she hesitated, so that's why I was so adamant about her leaving the situation.
  3. Yes, I agree with you. Thank you for clarifying.
  4. My advice to you is to get out of there RIGHT NOW! Do you have friends that you can stay with for a short time? Family members? It may seem scary to just leave but you need to figure out what your best option is. Ask yourself, what would someone who loved themselves do? Would they stay with the abusive parents or leave and face uncertainty and fear of the unknown? Please focus on keeping yourself safe. Don't feel like you have to make any attempts at reconciliation with your parents unless you want to. At this point, they do not deserve to have a relationship with you. It is not your responsibility to make them feel good. Ask yourself, If a friend ever treated you the way your parents are treating you, would you still be in contact with that person? The answer should be no. You need to focus on keeping yourself physically and emotionally safe which means try as best as you can to surround yourself with people who make you feel better not worse. Maybe there is a teacher at school you could trust? Avoid being alone in the same room as your parents to the best of your ability. Don't let them have any opportunities to hurt you further. Maybe stay overnight at a friends during the week if you can. Reminder that you are not alone. You have a support network on here and you can rely on us. Please don't hesitate to contact me anytime you want someone to talk to. I don't know much about medications but I do have my fair share of experience with complicated relationships and with anxiety and suicidal ideation. Get on Youtube if you can and watch Teals video on it. It changed my life. Good luck and stay safe. Remember that this is not your fault. You do not deserve this, and you are not a fuck up. Things are going to get better for you.
  5. This might work for an otherwise healthy relationship in which there was just an misunderstanding or argument, and in which all parties are open to resolution, but this is an overtly physically and emotionally ABUSIVE relationship! Her parents have clearly shown that they have no interest in having a healthy functioning relationship with their daughter and so it seems to me that her main priority at this point should be getting away from there in order to protect her physical and emotional safety. This is not something that can be talked through. These people clearly mean her harm and she is not physically safe with them.
  6. I don't think it's "souls" that get stuck. It's more like fragments of personality that are stuck in fear. Teal has a very interesting video about this. It's almost like they get stuck in a loop, which is why you often see ghosts who continuously repeat the same behaviours or appear in the same places. But souls are separate from this, in my opinion.
  7. This is so fun! I think I would look pretty similar to how I do now. Vibrant blue eyes, long thick dark hair, and pale milky skin. I picture myself wearing a flowing blue gown, silver jewelry. barefoot, surrounded by blue energy and just radiating happiness and childish, innocent joy. I think I would be very associated with water and with the moon. I would wear a Sari like this one,
  8. My favorite word is, Ethereal 1. extremely delicate and light in a way that seems too perfect for this world.
  9. It frustrates me

    That my feet are so firmly planted

    on the ground 

    when all I can think of 

    is flight

  10. Inside me is a hole

    Carved out and strengthened 

    over time by everyone who left

    Everyone who abandoned me

    Dragging their claws across

    my insides on their way out

    the door

    And I am left wondering,

    will I ever be loved?

    will I ever be safe in this

    world of broken hopes

    and shame.

    Burning in me as surely 

    as it burned in the hearts

    of those who introduced it 

    too me.

    They were hurting too.

     

  11. So why am I alone?

               Misunderstood

    Forgotten

               Unseen

    A failure

              Tortured

    Every moment

              Of my life?

    Because it's not enough to have escaped the fire

    It keeps chasing after you

    It hurts me.

    This life hurts me.

    I don't want it.

    But if I don't want it,

        that means I have to make the decision to kill myself

    And I don't want to have to do that

                       I wish someone else would do it for me.

                       That way it's not my fault.

                       That way I can be free.

                                           

  12. They say they love me

    But it's not true

    Not really

    Maybe they think that they do

    But that's only because they are blinded by

    Themselves

    They have never looked inside me

    Not once.

    I wish that they would

    I am desperate for them to see me

    I am desperate for them to see

    the pain they have created

    so that they can stop saying that it's not their 

    fault

                                                                      Ok,  fine then

    its not their fault

    and I am left here in the darkness

    to drown in myself

     

    What would I create here in the world, if I was not terrified of it? But I am scared, so scared.

    always scared always

     

     

     

  13. sometimes I feel I cannot live in this world                         without destroying myself

  14. One of the first lessons

    I learned in this life was

    that I am bad

    And need to be hidden away

    Out of sight and out of mind

    out of the minds of those who

    would seek to destroy my most

    vulnerable self.

    And yet in my isolation 

    I can never meet with that which I crave

    To be consumed by another

    Rather than pushed headfirst into the abyss.

  15. A couple of short poems,

     

    When I fall into a hole of numbness

    And cannot move for days on end

    Does that make me a failure?

     

    I can't wait to die.

    I can't wait to float away on the breeze

    as light as a feather

    and let the current take me where it may

    without fear

    because then I will have nothing left to lose

    and nothing left to hold onto