Online Workshop OCT 2019 - 2/2

  • 00:00:00 UTIs & CYSTS
  • 00:10:30 Why do I keep thinking of someone that's not in my life anymore?
  • 00:11:40 How to gain sex drive?
  • 00:14:05 ATTACHMENT STYLES. How do I recover from disorganized attachment style?
  • 00:35:00 How do you create healing in a relationship when you have enmeshment trauma?
  • 00:39:20 SCAPEGOATS. As the family scapegoat, of course I keep finding myself in the scapegoat role in relationships and social groups. I understand from your video that this is an internalized pattern also. How exactly am I scapegoating myself?
  • 00:44:50 NO VISUAL MEMORIES/IMAGINATION. I have difficulty using my imagination. Everything in my mind's eye appears blurry, vague and unstable, I can barely induce any feelings and memories. Processes like the Completion Process (CP) seem impossible and there's no way for me to see a CP practitioner. How do I heal my very fragmented self in this state?
  • 00:47:10 What to do if you do the Completion Process and feel worse?
  • 00:58:20 INTEGRATING THE EGO. How do you discern between what is Ego, and what is True Knowing?
  • 01:00:35 How do I find new people to really connect with after cutting all the toxic people out?
  • 01:02:35 ATTRACTED TO WRONG PEOPLE. Craving intimacy only from those who are not capable of it. I meet people who are capable of it, who are very interested in me, and I have zero attraction to them. How can I get this need for intimacy met in a healing way?
  • 01:03:20 Whenever I try to like myself I just can't, and it causes a lot of pain. I can't seem to get over my own self hate and I dont know how to integrate it or go into it so that I can give that part of my self love.
  • 01:04:20 I'm worried that I make myself into a victim for attention. How do I respect the part of me that feels like a victim but also scrutinise my behaviour without invalidating that part of myself?
  • 01:07:45 I am a conscious sex worker and am wholeheartedly interested in serving both men and women through the upliftment of us both. What are some things I can do to increase my power and effectiveness with men? What are some things or traps to avoid relative to this line of work?
  • 01:12:10 CANCER. Last month I was diagnosed with stage 3 rectal cancer. I have been trying to approach as an antagonistic ally as you talk about in your cancer video. One lesson is it is forcing me to learn how to need others and rely upon them for support. Yet, I don't trust others who didn't show up in my life before my diagnosis but now are available to support the "Cancer Guy". It also annoys me when they want me to take on some "Fighter", "Hero" or "Trooper" identity to make them feel better about their own fear of death. How can I receive support from others on the terms they are able to provide it while remaining true to myself?
  • 01:14:15 I've already become an adult, but I wish I could grow taller or transform my body in different ways (i.e. become skinnier, etc.) Can this be possible?
  • 01:16:50 Teal's letter to you