Online Workshop - March 4 2018 - Part 2/2

0:10 Feeling Unloved & Unwanted - how to heal?

1:40 Problem children. My child is constantly acting out in school. What do I do?

5:45 Ancestral/generational trauma

8:35 Raising a child with no trauma

10:55 Eczema

13:10 Cerebral Palsy

15:50 All about manifesting money

32:20 I always have a bad day after a very good day. About when people that are threatened by your happiness

37:25 Extreme PTSD. Disassosiative seizures. Experiencing somatic reactions while trying to do the Completion Process

41:00 Releasing resistance to intimacy

44:50 Chronic pain, don't know where it's coming from

1:01:00 Resentment over having to take care of others

1:05:55 Candida. Parasites in the body.

1:09:55 Other people's opinions are holding me back

1:18:00 Identity crisis after quitting something

1:20:10 Parasitic VS healthy relationships

1:32:15 Spirit guides. A channel shamed me, now I don't trust spirit guides

1:35:45 The mental health system. Conflicting diagnosis. Complex PTSD

1:38:00 Borderline Peronality Disorder

1:43:30 Codependency VS Cocreation


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Thank you so much for this awesome workshop!! And for the unedited upload! <3 

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Wow blake got it rough right at the end

see you in chicago

 

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ok, so besides integration, what else can i do to soothe the aspect that is afraid of segregation and feelings of judgment hatred jealousy, if i earn money? like is there anything worse than that? you sense how your community judges money, what kind of bravery from my side is needed for me to bust the collective core belief? i understand the abundance and flow of energy, i block it myself, though its hurtful.. but i want to  do something for this people at the same time while allowing myself to be wealthy and ok and all... how do i keep balance, how do i give while i receive? how do you allow yourself to receive if you are not giving? if you save yourself ? you are hurt for knowing you'd be segregated, you feel it already, therefore you don't like where you at, therefore you block everything...How do i let it flow and dont feel as the world is collapsing? as my world tendencies wants needs are collapsing at the same time while i am receiving. I feel like i am dying while i receive. It's the ego i assume...

 I do compare, I do tend to identify with one aspect, since it's lot easier (lie), but if you got no heart? how do i share knowledge wisdom whatever when noone approaches u and you waiting in the pool  and waiting and waiting and waiting... 

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The segment of the last interaction with Blake is extremely insensitive. you can not go with any kind of truth while ignoring the place where the other one is in that moment. at least not if the sake of the process is awareness. I feel that Teal is ignoring the physical reality and the state of the nervous system of Blake completely in this moment. It makes me angry to see what is happening there. The conversation is driven by one idea, and one conviction of the beginning of the conversation, to make this belief a proof over 10 minutes, but in my eyes the reality from that idea shifted many times, there were softenings and spaces, different nuances of emotional vulnerability, but these werent  seen, only the strong and driven belief. The anger of Teal which was caused by the question before that last interaction with Blake had not enough space and compassion and so it took over to Blake into last interaction. I am actually really shocked about the last part. Because of the emotional damage it is causing. By the way a narcissist is not better or less than a codependent. Both are in a state of denial of their true self, so no need to make one of them worse or better. I had to stop the video when Blake in the end should speak about the new announces. I feel such anger about this!

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16 hours ago, lenalena said:

The segment of the last interaction with Blake is extremely insensitive. you can not go with any kind of truth while ignoring the place where the other one is in that moment. at least not if the sake of the process is awareness. I feel that Teal is ignoring the physical reality and the state of the nervous system of Blake completely in this moment. It makes me angry to see what is happening there. The conversation is driven by one idea, and one conviction of the beginning of the conversation, to make this belief a proof over 10 minutes, but in my eyes the reality from that idea shifted many times, there were softenings and spaces, different nuances of emotional vulnerability, but these werent  seen, only the strong and driven belief. The anger of Teal which was caused by the question before that last interaction with Blake had not enough space and compassion and so it took over to Blake into last interaction. I am actually really shocked about the last part. Because of the emotional damage it is causing. By the way a narcissist is not better or less than a codependent. Both are in a state of denial of their true self, so no need to make one of them worse or better. I had to stop the video when Blake in the end should speak about the new announces. I feel such anger about this!

Actually I got a lot out of that, it’s made me realise how messed up my head is and how completely incapable I am of controlling/recognising it :-(  

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On 10/03/2018 at 3:01 PM, CasCas said:

Actually I got a lot out of that, it’s made me realise how messed up my head is and how completely incapable I am of controlling/recognising it :-(  

Yes, that’s true. But as a codependent myself , I watched, and I felt pain of like someone did not recognize my pain. To be bad? I feel bad from the childbirth, and then I hear - accept that you are bad... well I am already feeling that deep inside... but it felt like - there is nothing wrong with you concept - was more - there is something wrong with you - because you are codependent. Well , that’s the first time , I felt the pain of my own trauma so much that I felt resistance to the teal’s words.... and your realization- how messed up you are in your head.... 

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On 3/10/2018 at 1:09 AM, Mai-da said:

how do i share knowledge wisdom whatever when noone approaches u and you waiting in the pool  and waiting and waiting and waiting... 

... Hey Mai-da, so you were meaning "pool" in an allegorical sense. How about leaving that community that judges money?
And besides, how do they judge it and why? Why would you buy into their beliefs of money; given that you know and feel differently - or maybe you don't feel differently..?

As Teal would ask, what if their beliefs about money were true? What would that mean to you?
What if your belief on money was different and countered others beliefs on money - what would that mean for you..?

I'll tell you something about human belief patterns and you tell me if I'm barking up the wrong tree or not...
Take a salesperson that wants to sell you something that he/she says will benefit you immensely.

Let's say a Real Estate agent or car salesman - makes no difference - they're wanting someone to buy something from them...
First they judge how this saleswoman looks; how she dresses and acts and then and only then, what she says. But to convince them she knows what she's talking about, she dresses as a successful saleswoman, with all that success means to anyone looking at her; tailored suit, expensive executive shoes, she's coutured, razor-sharp, smart and well-spoken, especially with the patter).

So you are swayed by how she looks and then what she says and then the actual offer. No matter what the product is, our first expectation is that "this person knows what she's talking about because she looks successful". If she drove up to your door, you can be guaranteed she stopped where you had a plain view of her Mercedes - chances are it's borrowed and not hers.

By now you're asking - what has this to do with what I asked 'how do I give while I receive'...?

Look at the part where Teal's describing a rich kid - maybe you are wearing Gucci when you should be wearing Skank. Maybe you are in tv couch slouch when you should be in GUESS..? What I'm trying to say is who are you giving to? What if the bucket you're in is the wrong bucket..?

You have walked up to this workshop question without a 'front' with these questions and you are opening yourself to criticism and judgement; but you are being open and honest and I like that about you. Always have. But this is not the Mai-da that first came into Premium, is it?  I am not the same Rob that came in either (though some may have felt the sharp end of my words and say I've gotten worse)...
So maybe, you are still dressed in a suit? Even maybe, you are waiting in the wrong pool? And more maybe, you keep going to the hardware store for lemons?

Mai-da, if you have so much to give then don't doubt it and just give it. But where it's needed.
Take any first step towards this and focus please, on what the end result will be of you doing all this. After a while, with no effort on your part, you will find that suit changes to more comfortable clothes without you realising it, the pool will change to the one you want to be in and the giving will have some receiving to it as an added bonus. 

So choose - is your goal to receive or to give? One is not mutually exclusive of the other.

My abundance is not reliant on receiving. I make my money by being of service and doing it as best as I can. It has nothing to do with the spiritual side of me. The part that gives has always given not matter what or where and when that is lacking - I have my wife who reminds me that giving is slipping behind. ha!

Besides my occupation - which by the way I charge well for... 
I have a second money stream. This allows me to be able to decide to give away my time and energy to others on behalf of the universe. So I have worked out ways to receive based on ways I give:

To give and receive I energy share.
To give, I do sound healing and meditation sessions to those that deserve it in our wider community.
To give and share and receive, I search out other like-minded people who do what I do and I extend my contacts who may wish to receive what I have to give.

So in the words of a famous clothing brand: "Versace, darling"  
uh, I mean "Nike - just do it"

Each step taken leads you to the next step...
I hope this helps
crystal Rob

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On 3/10/2018 at 11:35 AM, lenalena said:

The anger of Teal which was caused by the question before that last interaction with Blake had not enough space and compassion and so it took over to Blake into last interaction.

Hey @lenalena , I see see your dilemma. But Blake and Teal have been working on this before this session - Teal's helping Lynne and Blake out with their relationship and she cares for them both; they are a apart of her. Lynne does CP and parts Work and yes, has these things she's working on but Blake distracts and avoids. Pinning him down is Teal's way of loving him - just because he felt uncomfortable and him trying to deflect which he's a Master at - him showing emotion over this was a good thing. Teal and Blake go way back so she does what she does because she cares. What you saw was nothing to do with Teal's anger over the previous question - more like a reaction within you over what used to happen to you in that same situation - so it resonated real deep for you and that's understandable. If you weren't a mirror to that exact-same thing, you wouldn't get triggered by it. Your emotions - triggered by watching this is a good thing too - you're becoming more aware of how you are and what it means and doesn't mean.

Personally, seeing Blake is like a pre-cursor to what Teal will be putting me through. Not pretty and definitely the "Hot Seat" is aptly named.

I liked the whole session and workshop. Teal, you get better and better.

 

PS: does anyone know Lynne's name spelling? I keep typing Lynne...

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vor 16 Stunden schrieb Crystal Rob:

Hey @lenalena , I see see your dilemma. But Blake and Teal have been working on this before this session - Teal's helping Lynne and Blake out with their relationship and she cares for them both; they are a apart of her. Lynne does CP and parts Work and yes, has these things she's working on but Blake distracts and avoids. Pinning him down is Teal's way of loving him - just because he felt uncomfortable and him trying to deflect which he's a Master at - him showing emotion over this was a good thing. Teal and Blake go way back so she does what she does because she cares. What you saw was nothing to do with Teal's anger over the previous question - more like a reaction within you over what used to happen to you in that same situation - so it resonated real deep for you and that's understandable. If you weren't a mirror to that exact-same thing, you wouldn't get triggered by it. Your emotions - triggered by watching this is a good thing too - you're becoming more aware of how you are and what it means and doesn't mean.

Personally, seeing Blake is like a pre-cursor to what Teal will be putting me through. Not pretty and definitely the "Hot Seat" is aptly named.

I liked the whole session and workshop. Teal, you get better and better.

 

PS: does anyone know Lynne's name spelling? I keep typing Lynne...

Hi Rob. I do not see that you see my dilemma. Because there is none. Thank you for your idea that it had been a triggering reaction in me. But it is not the case. I am glad that I can differentiate between these two things today-

Maybe it is triggering for you to read my lines. But I am fine. Anger is not always a trigger, my friend. What I am writing is very different from what you are mirroring. That makes me aware that you do not get my point. 

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5 hours ago, lenalena said:

That makes me aware that you do not get my point. 

Thanks for responding Lenalena; I'll try better next time.

 

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I relate so well with Lynn and her pain her mother not wanting her. Thank you Teal and staff. Excellent work~!!

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I want to Know one  thing; what is the difference between codependency and covert narcissism? Thankyou.

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my mother started telling me the story of how she tried to kill me in her womb because my father was bad to her and she was going through a lot. She started telling me this since i was very young to make me feel "special" for making it into the world. I am her miracle child according to her. I always felt indifferent about that story even though my husband kept telling me that was a big deal and it can't be good for my mental health. I've always been terrified about the idea of depending on someone, I think i learned today why. Sometimes i start crying when i hear information about emotional pain i wasn't aware of, i don't cry with everything i watch so i think it relates to me somehow. You make a big difference in peoples lives, thank you so much.

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Teal thank you for ranting about borderline, I had to deal with the shrink doctor today about my refusal to take medication! I appreciate you so much with you insight, amazing yah are friend!

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