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Feeling like I'm done with this life.

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I feel so far behind many of the people on here  on understanding the lingo so please for the sake of my chemo brain , if you answer keep it simple lol.  I died and was brought back in 2007. I knew it wasn't my time yet but I didn't have any grand epiphany like some do. My mom ( my other half) died in 2010. I feel like she took half of me with her and haven't been able to be inspired by anything since. I do not feel suicidal but I'm certainly not living. I feel like, I'm just waiting out my end. Does anyone else feel this way? I've tried everything, get inspired videos, meditation, counseling, pills, the power of attraction.. etc. etc..

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I am sure your mom have always wanted the best for you because all moms really want their children to be someone great in life and do better always. Now having said this, do you think your mom would like to see you in the state you are in? of course not she would want you to live your life which ever way it made you happy. Yes she is not there for you but use this energy and let this motivate you to live the life you truly want to live because I am sure your mom wouldn't want you to be sad, crying with no motivation because she has passed away, I am sure she would want you to move on and live your life to the fullest so go and make it happen! Move ahead constructively and don't stay stagnant in the past. I'm not saying forget about her but know that waiting for your death won't make a difference in your life either and now that you know this you know that is you that has to be willing to start to make the difference in your life because no motivational video is more stronger then your own will to do better....you are the creator of your reality so get up and empower yourself because you are this great being that can make anything come to fruition for yourself as long as it's within what is truly going to make you happy. Please be patient with everything since everything that you want will come at it's right given time.

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Thank you Eric :) I understand what you are saying. It doesn't seem like depression though, well maybe parts. I still play video games and go to the casino and do things that gave me enjoyment. I even have my self a young 30 year old boyfriend !I just don't feel connected to people , nor do I feel like I want to. I don't hate people , just the opposite , I've spent most of my life taking care often , health wise, financially, mentally, spiritually and I have no regrets. I enjoyed it. The only way I can explain it is, it's like we were conjoined twins raised in the same womb, only instead of being connected by flesh , we were connected by spirit. You are right though, she would never want to see me like this. I'm still working on it. I think too that Bess was on to something. I think I've been trying to hard to " get better" I will be patient, I promise :) It's strange but I feel a lil better even just typing it out !

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Sorry to hear about your death in 2007, but CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR COME BACK, that was awesome to hear about. Sorry to hear about your Mom's passing, I can sympathize, my mother died 60 years ago, I was 7 at the time and I can tell you from experience, that you will never forget, but it does get easier to live with.

 

You have my deepest sympathy friend.

 

Namaste

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10 hours ago, mysticme73@yahoo.com said:

Thank you Eric :) I understand what you are saying. It doesn't seem like depression though, well maybe parts. I still play video games and go to the casino and do things that gave me enjoyment. I even have my self a young 30 year old boyfriend !I just don't feel connected to people , nor do I feel like I want to. I don't hate people , just the opposite , I've spent most of my life taking care often , health wise, financially, mentally, spiritually and I have no regrets. I enjoyed it. The only way I can explain it is, it's like we were conjoined twins raised in the same womb, only instead of being connected by flesh , we were connected by spirit. You are right though, she would never want to see me like this. I'm still working on it. I think too that Bess was on to something. I think I've been trying to hard to " get better" I will be patient, I promise :) It's strange but I feel a lil better even just typing it out !

It's interesting that you don't think it's depression (that's what it sounded like until I read this update) - I was watching one of Teal's interviews recently where she was talking to a man who had been through a near death experience, and when he returned he lost the 'zest for life' that he had before. He wasn't particularly upset about anything, he just wished that he was more passionate about things like he had been in the past. Teal described it as losing attachment to the physical world after being reunited with our higher self upon dying. Her advice to the man was to go out and try a whole bunch of NEW things that were of interest to him. Make a whole list and work through it. She explained that he needed to find a new passion.

It's worth a shot :)

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My mother was the same she died in November 2007 she was less than impressed she was bought back she passed away 2014  In those extra 7 years she really tried to find purpose it was  odd my mother was the funniest, kindest most generous straight to the point person loved by everyone she met, but inside she was done she had so much pain and angry she held onto it constantly resurfaced and ego would take over, but in her extra time on earth she got to see two of her daughters marry and two grandchild born which made her extremely happy, 

mymother was very much a empath and when she was good she was amazing but when she was bad it was terrible I honestly think she failed to ground her self a lot and took on a lot of other ppls pain and negative energy and ego would get the better of her and if she had a ritual of daily grounding it would have done wonders for her, it's the same for my sometime I have days where I don't know what's wrong but I feel like crap in every way and then I remember oh I need to ground my self it can be as simple as get going outside with no shoes on and I'm sure teal has a vid on it 

 

I love the other girls advise of the crying tree my mum would have benefited from this to, and think that and a lil grounding  ritual afterward would be of huge benefit to you ?

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I wanted to die after my husband left me pregnant. In my darkest hour I went for a 5 hour hike in the woods to search for a lake to drown my body in (with the fetus). 

Along the way I kneeled down crying so hard and asked the nature spirits and trees to help me in my despair. I touched the earth/ leaves. All of a sudden I started feeling euphoric bliss. It was crazy. I have listened to over 100 Abraham cds and she says that jumps on the emotional scale is not possible, and if it does happen its just temporary.

That bliss lasted the whole rest of the hike.  It was not temporary.

My advise to you is ASK for help. Angles are there waiting for you to ask!!!!

Anna

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Thank you all for reading my post, responding and most of all sharing your stories with me. It really means a lot to know there are still so much love in the world. Its also refreshing to me, to be able to let loose like this. Mark I envy you! I've always wanted to be a writer. I find it very hard to express myself, most times. I am so sorry to anyone else who has lost their mom too, especially when your young. I love the quote from The Crow " Mother is the name for god on the lips and hearts of all children" Just know our moms are around us. I just wanna hug you lol. Anna , I 'm so proud you for staying with us. I've been in those shoes too. Its amazing how mother earth jumps into full gear when your preggers :) I  thought I had watched all of Teals videos but it looks like I have some review to do.

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On 10/06/2016 at 4:58 PM, mysticme73@yahoo.com said:

I do not feel suicidal but I'm certainly not living. I feel like, I'm just waiting out my end.

when you are in a waiting room (at the dr's office, for instance, or any other waiting room) what do you do? 

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In my case Mufhry, sit and wait lol :)Help here Walt, I really am slow. Do you mean Chakras? I watched one of Teals videos last night about building walls to keep love out and pain in. It made a lot of sense to me but a lot of what she says does. The core sounds like a good place to start. I'm just at a loss at how. I'm great at helping others and Really crappy at helping myself. I will check out anything she has on core work tonight. Ty  <3 Oh! I knew a healer  once named Jack. He was the real deal <3 I miss him so much bless his heart, great man, but it got me to thinking about finding someone. The hard part is credibility and finance. I was paying a reiki lady 40 dollars for 30 min. but I didn't really feel any better.

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On 6/15/2016 at 4:56 PM, anna23@natureday.com said:

I wanted to die after my husband left me pregnant. In my darkest hour I went for a 5 hour hike in the woods to search for a lake to drown my body in (with the fetus). 

Along the way I kneeled down crying so hard and asked the nature spirits and trees to help me in my despair. I touched the earth/ leaves. All of a sudden I started feeling euphoric bliss. It was crazy. I have listened to over 100 Abraham cds and she says that jumps on the emotional scale is not possible, and if it does happen its just temporary.

That bliss lasted the whole rest of the hike.  It was not temporary.

My advise to you is ASK for help. Angles are there waiting for you to ask!!!!

Anna

That is an amazing story.  when you want truth and love above all else that is when you allow it to be shown to you. Its always there but our focus is so specific to our body mind that we tend to block it. awesome that you were able to allow it when you needed it most! :)

 

On 6/10/2016 at 4:58 PM, mysticme73@yahoo.com said:

I feel so far behind many of the people on here  on understanding the lingo so please for the sake of my chemo brain , if you answer keep it simple lol.  I died and was brought back in 2007. I knew it wasn't my time yet but I didn't have any grand epiphany like some do. My mom ( my other half) died in 2010. I feel like she took half of me with her and haven't been able to be inspired by anything since. I do not feel suicidal but I'm certainly not living. I feel like, I'm just waiting out my end. Does anyone else feel this way? I've tried everything, get inspired videos, meditation, counseling, pills, the power of attraction.. etc. etc..

I would try connecting with others. maybe through volunteering your time. maybe even as simple as babysitting a relative regularly with the intent of each interaction of " i am only here to be truly helpful and to be guided by the one who sent me"  if you go into each interaction with the goal of extending love your perceptions will show you how or what you need to allow more joy to come to you.

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