Endrogenous

I'm a intense energy

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Hi I've tried both bentinho messarro and Matt Kahn s communities 

I like being open with the shadow but so far Ive only had ego response from both Matt and Ben ... 

Both have behaved in ways I don't trust ... It's not safe their new to theses things 

after sitting with both tibetian and zen masters I'd like to handle my life's journey of what presents itself right now consciously 

after watching the film the messiah the story of Jesus from baby to seven years old . A scene that says how do we explain God to himself . 

This has been my life's journey trying to raise my daughter with this vision and a partner who could not see this in himself or me or my kids ... 

Now im in court ... He is claiming insanity that I am too unfit to mother my daughter because my main focus is on her emotions and that I base my life and hers around how she feels towards life and following truth of self of desire and purpose . 

When trying for full custody after seeing a video of his girlfriend in a bondage outfit with my ex step son .. I stood in a court room and said I want full custody. I don't want my daughter influenced by this women. When asked if I reported it to cps I said no because I was told my daughter may be examined physically by a doctor if sexual abuse may be present . I didn't feel she was being physically abused but emotionally how do I prove this is as harmful . Now I'm crazy ....because I held my daughter home during the divorce as she would be going through so much emotionally from school. That looking after our children's emotionally  state as Foremost and not just sending her to school or give her to her father if she's in a state that she doesn't feel safe to go . How can we show that these old ways are the abuse not the new ways . Would teal interview me or sit with me and my daughter ... If im crazy I want to know. Cause if I'm insane as a mother then no mother should have there children . For the judge to hand over my daughter to my husband and this women . This dimention I'm in needs some alignment . 

Neena 

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So, what would you like from this community? I'm intense as well. I have Scorpio Moon conjunct Pluto. I'm a Scorpio Rising. And my Sun, Mars, and Mercury are in the 8th house..... this all screams intensity. Lol. Not assuming you know astrology, but if you do, thought that could help. I don't know that I can help you, but I am willing to try.

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1 hour ago, Endrogenous said:

Hi I've tried both bentinho messarro and Matt Kahn s communities 

I like being open with the shadow but so far Ive only had ego response from both Matt and Ben ... 

Both have behaved in ways I don't trust ... It's not safe their new to theses things 

after sitting with both tibetian and zen masters I'd like to handle my life's journey of what presents itself right now consciously 

after watching the film the messiah the story of Jesus from baby to seven years old . A scene that says how do we explain God to himself . 

This has been my life's journey trying to raise my daughter with this vision and a partner who could not see this in himself or me or my kids ... 

Now im in court ... He is claiming insanity that I am too unfit to mother my daughter because my main focus is on her emotions and that I base my life and hers around how she feels towards life and following truth of self of desire and purpose . 

When trying for full custody after seeing a video of his girlfriend in a bondage outfit with my ex step son .. I stood in a court room and said I want full custody. I don't want my daughter influenced by this women. When asked if I reported it to cps I said no because I was told my daughter may be examined physically by a doctor if sexual abuse may be present . I didn't feel she was being physically abused but emotionally how do I prove this is as harmful . Now I'm crazy ....because I held my daughter home during the divorce as she would be going through so much emotionally from school. That looking after our children's emotionally  state as Foremost and not just sending her to school or give her to her father if she's in a state that she doesn't feel safe to go . How can we show that these old ways are the abuse not the new ways . Would teal interview me or sit with me and my daughter ... If im crazy I want to know. Cause if I'm insane as a mother then no mother should have there children . For the judge to hand over my daughter to my husband and this women . This dimention I'm in needs some alignment . 

Neena 

 

Is your name really Neena? The reason I ask is because I have a friend named Teena and I think that is so cool that you two share two unique names that are so similar.  

Ok, to business... I can sort of relate to your story in a way because I have recently (a few years ago) gone through a divorce and when you have children involved, things seem to always be in a process of resolve.  

So, I have two children with my ex-wife and at the beginning of the divorce, it seemed like things were going to end well or end on a cordial note at least, involving the children. We agreed on a number for child support and everything. Well after a while things began to heat up from differences of opinions I will say. At one point I did call the cops on her so that there could be something filed with Child Services for I was concerned about my daughter's safety after she brought some facts forward after I witnessed some physical like abuse from her mother. Anyways, I chose to just let things go and focus on being positive and not carry all of this unnecessary animosity. And I want to tell you that this was the best decision that I have made thus far because even though it may have looked as though she had the upper hand because I have been given a title by doctors, things just turned out to bite her in the ass. This is truly from me not focusing on the negative energy that she chose to continue to focus on and I firmly believe that the Law of Attraction was at work with this. So my advice (and please do take it with a grain of salt) for you is to calm down and don't focus on the negativity and just be the best mother that you can be and focus less on how others may view you and your maternity skills. You may be a tad bit anxious but I don't think that you are crazy. tbh though, whichever one of you continues to work hard on "winning" the child is the one that will end up losing the child in the long run because they will be drained of all their energy and have no leg to stand on in the end. Thank you and much Love for everyone here!

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This is the kind of situation with custody and courts and having someone try to make you look crazy in the eyes of the law----that  stuff always leaves me feeling stumped and powerless.  

 

BDSM is not a bad thing between consenting adults.  Some people even use it as a form of therapy.  BUT.....her son was involved in this with her?  Thats extremely disturbing.  Is he of legal age?  If he"s underage, you need to alert the authorities  immediately. I dont care if he's 17 and you think he's almost an adult.  Or if he's older now.  If he was underage at the time of appearing in the video--- We're talking about child pornography and exploitation, by a parent nonetheless; and you have no way of knowing what OTHER videos and materials he may  have been in , starting from god-knows-what-age.  Reporting information is below:

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 To report an incident involving the possession, distribution, receipt, or production of child pornography, file a report on the National Center for Missing & Exploited Children (NCMEC)'s website at www.cybertipline.com[external link], or call 1-800-843-5678. Your report will be forwarded to a law enforcement agency for investigation and action

 

If she is or WAS, involved w the creation or distribution of child pornography in ANY way, your daughter is absolutely NOT safe in that environment.  

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