Everyone, to have my existence validated, and feel like I deserve to be here, otherwise I deserve to suffer and die? Like Im constantly looking around to see if the light is still green or not, whether the right to exist is still here or not 

My friends partners when I'm in a relationship my mum and dad . Why because growing up i was conditioned by my father that I was dumb stupid not going to be nothing in life can't do anything right so now I need validation to feel good about what im doing and that in doing the right thing

My parents, because I still depend on them financially, emotionally

My daughter and grandkids, they are all that really matters 

Other humans because I need connection

My father....it means I'm good enough..I'm worthy 

Society, my family, my partner's family, my partner, and I don't know how to completely stop yet.

My own self.

Are my actions for the betterment of my well being?

Men (my twin flame.... I feel upset because now I feel that TFs are idolatrous) so I choose to consider him a soulmate, .... I'm practicing detachment from people. my friends my mother, my cousins. 

Friends, because I easily feel thrown off and unsure of myself. 

Someone can break my leg without any reason. And if I'm beeing gaslighted on top of that. And get no validation from outside that I've been treated badly. I start behaving like everythings in order. And I dont do anything about it, I just go on carrying the pain. Silently on the inside.

Myself

because that is all that matters

No-one.. Once from the universe but it let me know it doesn't give damn about it. So I got my lesson.

I dont know. People in general are not my true focus right not. It is hard to get validation for something that is intangible.  I want to validated by my actions and the wieght f my heart.

Myself.

I want to feel comfortable being honest with myself and committing to my own happiness.

I want validation from the entire world that I won't be abandoned when I do so.

I think some father figure. Someone like God or Jesus or some other Guru. Or Dumbledore.

First of all I'd be happy to have a relationship with a fatherXD

I wish I had had a better version of the father I had. Like 80% more than he was. Cause he was violent or absent. Sometimes he would also to the contrary slip into a spiritual role of love peace and harmony. 

Only problem he never understood that massage.

My soul, because that’s why I am in body alive

Myself