Ask Yourself...

I feel like I'm meant to be a leader via my actions. As in, I lead thru how I live my life. Does that make sense?

On 10/27/2020 at 1:07 PM, KameronS. said:

I feel like I'm meant to be a leader via my actions. As in, I lead thru how I live my life. Does that make sense?

Yes I feel the same way

Something big , don’t know what tho 😩

Happy 🙂

A lover. Someone who takes everyone and everything as a part of themselves 

something unique...smth no one would have ever expected me to be, a surprise....in the best way. Awesome  ^^ 🙃😁😆😉😊💚🧡

Edited January 10, 20215 yr by Vile

Someone who is a safe space for healing, truth and hope to occur.

A follower, in a mission, like I don't think I have the strength to stand up on my own but I think I can maybe work under someone to help people.

A questioner. A belief challenger. A soother.

An author

A powerful & compassionate & creative person.

Myself

A long distant runner

An artist. In all manners. Writing singing fashion dance painting drawing. 

A helper..some one who understands and can offer encouragement and blow wind in your sails 

My most authentic self, which includes every single part - light or dark, positive or negative - of myself. Being myself means being a reflection of every single person in this world and being connected with everything and everyone.

- Evelyna

I'm not meant to be

Ascension Galatic Guardian... High Priestess conscious creator of new earth living.. Goddess Warrior Leader.  I am meant to embrace my Multidimensional selves to serve the all with my gifts of light language and codes:) 

A Sheppard. 

A record keeper.

To answer this question. First I have to answer the most important question. Who am I? Or who do I think I am? Beyond the question just asked now. I feel is more related to the idea of what does the matrix want me to be. Or what do other people want me to be. I see a pattern in my life of this codependency habits, people pleasing and telling everyone what they want to hear. So, entrepreneurs (such as myself). Love looking into the mirror of love. Act a certain way, look a certain way for certain occasions. Dress in all black in order to attend a music concert. Or button up Tshirt and a tie to an interview. To be answer this question is I want to sat is this. Whatever the universe wind or will takes me. I am simply coexisting among you and the stars. I cannot simply tell you who I think need to be in this life, or the next, without describing the hobbies, habits or name that was given to me at birth. I am simply existing, as, I am. I can say that I am you, and you are me. A super network of super energetic consciousness simultaneously living multiple personalities. I am not separate to you but physically manifesting in this illusion of life. Today I can be Neeko the writer. While tomorrow I am a volunteer down at the local veteran tent. So to answer your question...who do I feel that I need to be...a fallen earth angel to hear what you have to say. Be an ear to vent toward. Also giving the best possible answer imaginable or to the best of my ability so other beings don't walk away unsatisfied. (Not a sarcastic answer) 

When feeling this question to myself, first picture coming is Athena, the greek goddess.

I feel authority, dedication to justice, willingness to fight and stand for truth, defending and protecting, refusing any type of abuse or misrespect, driven by compassion.

OK now, what do I do? ^^

A God.

AN ABSOLUTELY LIMITED, FINITE, MORTAL, SEPARATE, TIME AND SPACE BOUND PHYSICAL HUMAN ANIMAL THAT IS THE FULL EMBODIMENT OF THE GENUINE ESSENCE OF HIS OWN SINCERE PERSONAL TRUTH, REGARDLESS OF WHAT ANY  SPIRITUAL TEACHER SAYS, MOST ESPECIALLY SPIRITUAL TEACHERS THAT DO NOTHING BUT DENY, REJECT, CAST ASIDE, TRIVIALIZE, JUDGE, DEPRICATE, DENIGRATE, INVALIDATE, NEGATE, DISPARAGE, CRITICIZE, DENOUNCE, DESECRATE, DISSOCIATE, BRAINWASH, AND ARGUABLY MOST OF ALL, ENDLESSLY ABUSIVELY GASLIGHT.

Edited September 9, 20224 yr by FuckS ofpirituality

When I was born, I was born to be whole and healthy (with many things to potentially be) a diva, an artist, a friend, a fashionista, a writer, a singer, a lover, a wife, a biologist, a professional figure ice skater, a mother, a adventurous woman, an activist and advocate for rainforests and oceans... We can go on like this. 

Now Im not meant to be many, most of these things because I'm to hurt and to traumatized and to mentally ill, and to old to be those things, not much is left of who I came here to be. And Im just one of a billion people. (I'm not special) and Im meant different things now. 

And I'm OK with it for the most part. I had a very shitty childhood and what I learned is that you can be happy even though. And now it's the same, I can be appreciative anyway.

Parts of me are still the same. And I'm going to start there. And if was going to start somewhere:

I wasn't meant to live in the country I live in, I was meant to move far away into a different country. Where people speak Spanish or Portuguese. (because I don't belong here) 

I wasn't meant to be a single mom. This only occurred due to programming, and I never wanted this for myself, or any child, it's my worst nightmare. Raising a child without a father figure. (I was meant to have a real home and a family, and feel safer) 

I was meant to be educated and have the capability to work something I enjoy doing without having to worry alot how I'm going to get through the month. 

I was meant to leave the family I was birthed in behind.

I was meant to have self esteem. 

I was meant to march according to my own drum. 

I was meant to treat my own body with alot of respect and apreciation and to caretake my body and my physical needs. 

This is enough to work on and to figure out for now (and the years to come) , I'm not (ever) going to be a professional ice skater or a biologist, and it's OK. 

What's really not ok is, the "situationship" with my child. It took me 5 month to accept the name I gave him. I still don't accept how the pregnancy and time after birth went. I still don't know if I should be his mom and keep him, or give him up for adoption. I actually believe adoption would've been in some ways better for both of us, but he's my heart my blood and my instincts rule and say otherwise. Im angry at him (though he didn't do anything to deserve that) other people treated us poorly and I'm angry at him. Anyone who ever felt angry at a baby can possibly understand how you don't feel capable of beeing a mother. Also im undecided weither I even enjoy spending time with him. At the same time he gives my life meaning. I'm just not appreciative. 

This is what bothers me the most. My life is ruined because of this.