I’ve recently come to the very real conclusion that happiness to me is being with emotionally safe people. Time and time again I’ve reached material/monetary/career goals, and I am not happy because of the emotional climate of my environment. 

I yearn for the healing experience of living with and having a stable life experience with others who value softness, transparency, vulnerability, and shadow work. 

Im willing to sacrifice my career stability, my material stability, my monetary stability to be able to have this healing experience. 

Inspiring

Create an ad on fb to promote my business, try to go to work although I can't afford energetically to mess about with anything less than self love or my life purpose,..  do all I can to visualize my ideal place and these steps..  x

Others negative reactions. 

To face my shadows and emotions head on

I recently watched a Ted talk with someone who came back with the clarity that love is the most powerful force, and to live fearlessly snd be who u r! I just so realize since I love myself BECUZ I love myself I am willing to put myself OUT THERE!!! I’m willing to be seen! I’m willing to look at my discomfort and feel it as I try new things!

Physical sickness and/or injury that doesn't make me dangerous or suffer. Just discomfort.

Ending my romantic relationship of a decade in pursuit of respect, adoration, compatibility, sensuality, protection, trust, love, and affection.

So, I just read the question and felt myself sucking in air to prioritize my many answers, and then a song thrush just flew against the window I am sitting at with a big bang. She is alive, I just put her outside into the shade, hoping she’ll recover. 
I think that is actually my answer. I am willing to try and fail, even if I could die. But hoping to survive and hoping there will be someone that offers me a hand to get up again, if I crash. 
Would that mean risking my life? It does seem like something I ideally would do if it means I will find happiness. And somehow my happiness is always connected to relationships with people, be it friends, family or a partner, that want me. That I can trust. That are somehow missing in my life. 
I am new to this. But linked to the risk factor of my happiness, I would say, getting in touch with the aspect of myself that knows I can trust nobody and is keeping me from finding happiness is the work to be done now. She will let me crash otherwise…

Just went to check on the bird. She died.

Right now I'm approaching a point in my life where I'm willing to sacrifice short term thrills, and keep my eye on the prize. Actually, my willingness to do this has been revived lol, many ppl who know me now would not believe that there was a time where I was very focused and self-motivated. I'm happy to be getting back into that energy, i didn't realize how much i missed it .

Letting go

Let go of ppl, places and things that keep me from progressing towards my souls true alignment

Accept the new blueprint of life for myself

Embracing and accepting the light and the shadow within myself has guided me to inner peace, unconditional love and true happiness. To fully embrace yourself (the good and the bad) means going right through the eye of the storm and face the truth, own the truth and be the truth.

- Evelyna

Becoming more distant and not letting people know so much information

Specific? I'm always willing to experience pain if I see potential of healing or improving my situation. 

I guess right now I'm risking getting hurt in view of potentially being happy with someone.  I'm in a situation with a lover that is inherently confusing and painful. Him not wanting to commit to relationship but treating me better than anyone else before. He says we're friends but makes everything resemble a relationship. The problem is that it feels unsafe to me.  I don't need him to change, I don't need him to be behaving differently. If he committed to me I could be happy with him even if he stayed exactly like he is in every other aspect. So I'm staying in this situation not only because I love him but also because I'm seeing how much material it gives me to heal myself (triggers the hell out of my codependency and low esteem issues). He is very caring, patient with me and sees right through my bullsh*t. The only problem is that he needs time to process his own stuff, which I cannot help but perceive as a rejection, even though I know its not the case. This creates uncertainty in me and scares me out of connecting with him. He's the one who started me on this journey and throughout the year I knew him I consciously risked opening myself up to him many times with various results. Some painful and some beautiful.

Billions of risks im taking to be happy but it's just so contrary to the usual, sometimes it's difficult to stay centered 

TALK MY TRUTH NO MATTER WHAT

Assurance 

Invest money in a vague dream.

None. Happiness.. doesn't feel like something to take aim/risk for. Being happy, stays in a moments in life and even if these are priceless, risking for them is a form of control. 

None, the risk of beeing unhappy.

Leaving places and people that makes me unhappy

Follow my joy even if that means leaving relationship and safe places.

On 10/30/2020 at 7:28 PM, DulceRuizDesign57 said:

I’ve recently come to the very real conclusion that happiness to me is being with emotionally safe people. Time and time again I’ve reached material/monetary/career goals, and I am not happy because of the emotional climate of my environment. 

I yearn for the healing experience of living with and having a stable life experience with others who value softness, transparency, vulnerability, and shadow work. 

Im willing to sacrifice my career stability, my material stability, my monetary stability to be able to have this healing experience. 

Thank you for sharing! I am finding myself at the exact same point in my life where I put healthy relationships over monetary (transactional) relationships.