Someone who isnt upset about things that didnt even happen yet. And I believe someone whos more in the present than the future, witout loosing the future out of sight. I cant make it right for everybody. I dont have the means to do so. And yes I suffer from beeing alone a huge deal, it makes me feel worthless. Still though trying to live up to the expectations of others isnt whats right. I have a hard time standing my ground when theres noone having my back.I dont actually want or like that position at all. I hate beeing alone so much. I think Ide throw my personality a zillion times over Board not to be alone. I needed to be someone who wants to engage in an actual secure and real relationship. I feel like its doesnt exsist and its to hard to maintain. But maybe I dint really get what a secure relationsjip is, and maybe I just dont like loosing people.

EDIT.  I need to be someone who accepts that I will die eventually die and leave someone behind. And I have to accept that people are going to leave me behind aswell. If I dont accept this Im unable to have relationships in the first place, and to move on, and to live my purpose.

And if accept this, it will be easy to fullfill my purpose, maybe one day Ile even be actually happy again.

A leader. A spiritual one. A healer. A mother. Someone who went through chaos. Someone who helps others.

That's what I channeled around this question.

Myself without feeling guilty about my narcissistic mother, I love her but I feel like it's the moment to detach from her.

Someone awesome i guess

Time, motion. 

Someone happy healthy and sane, and with a heart. 

Someone who knows what and how to change

Someone who likes to be in their body and who feels their feelings. 

Someone who is able to relax. 

I don’t need to be anything. I already AM. A fragment of source gaining knowledge for its expansion. I am everything, so that awareness and the practice of perception and reflection will lead me to my purpose. 

The baddest bitch, like Trina.

I need to be soft with myself.